But

Control.

You have to be able to love someone before you can hate them.

Sometimes I love so much that I hate.

And at times I really, really hate you.

Spring.

Yesterday I had a really good day.

I liked it a lot.

I didn't even care when I was standing in the rain.

THE PHANTOMMMM

Oh hai!

What's doin?

I haven't seen you in a while ... I sort of missed the attention. But not really. At all.

Still pretending to be my boyfriend, I see. That's cool. I spose it's some form of flattery.




Hang on.


... does that mean you wanna date me?
HOMGOSH. You shoulda said something! Unfortunately I'm taken. Maybe another day, dearest PHANTOMMMM.


I see you found my Formspring, nicely done. Link me yours bebzZzZzZz? You have to have one.

I'm pretty sure amongst your accusations and insults you did mention a 'well done' so SHANKSH!
So I don't know who you are or what part of my life you're from but if you could possibly reveal yourself we might be able to have a normal person chat about why you dislike me and maybe sort something out!

If not, happy stalking!

xoxo CatHair

Oh hello.

I can haz your hair?

Life is alright in Ame*clap clap*

Despite several texts composed but not sent, yet another common room session spent complaining, way too much mopey music and a severe issue with iPod syncing, I am in a good mood for the first time in days!

Days I tell you!

I'm not sure what I did with goofy Kat but I'mma try and find her again because quite frankly I'm sick of my self-pitying self right now.

Actually Goofy Kat will be making a hefty appearance at the year 11 formal tomorrow night. Oh boy, it's gonna be good.

FINI.

One of those

A & J Stone, Lior, Sia, Sufjan Stevens days.


Year 12, I'm over you. I have bigger fish to fry and you're wasting my time.


I want to watch Scott Pilgrim Vs. The World again.
It was humour that was just right for me.


Nothing further for today, folks!

Juriran.

This is dedicated to Juriran and everyone who put any thought at all into buying me AN AXOLOTL.

If I have reached the happiest moment of my life today, I don't even care.

I don't know if you know Juriran but if you don't, you're missing out.
There are so many words I could try and use to describe him but they just aren't good enough.

So if you take thoughtful, kind, genius and hilarious, multiplied them by three infinities and them put them together in the most creative way you could think of it STILL wouldn't be good enough to match up to this boy.

Even if one day he realises I'm super annoying, I'll never forget him.

FINI.



PS I named the axolotl Wooper.

PPS I OWN AN AXOLOTL.

Can I have you?

I said you do.


I turn old tomorrow.







I'm not ready.
I'm a child.
I'm not ready.

It's like that. THIS IS LONG. So many nicknames.

You know when you spend a long time with people that you could spend a lot more time with because you're so comfortable with them and they make you so happy and having to leave them doesn't even make you sad because you just enjoyed yourself so much doing so little that nothing can make you unhappy at this point in time - not even paratactic sentences - because you're just so content with the fact that you have people like that?

I just had a day like that.
In fact I had an amazing day.

Now you have to both care and read.

Firstly I had physics tutor. I love physics. I love science. I think science is the ultimate beauty.
Peopel always say to me that they think it takes the magic out of everything, in that once ever process and phenomenon has an explanation it becomes less fascinating.I think it's the opposite. I think that there's an amazing magic in knowing how things work and that everything works. The beauty is in seeing the world in a different light because you have that extra knowledge.Physics is my way of accessing what I've always wondered about. Or things I didn't wonder about but now wonder why I never wondered.

After that I went to eat. My lunch cost me $3.50. 1.5 L of water, a huge banana and an extremely crisp apple.As I was eating my fruit, I noticed that there was a crowd under the clocks at Melbourne Central so of course I went to check out what all the fuss was about.

Then the best thing EVER happened.
The Rubik's.

Cube.

National.


Championships.

Were.

Being.

Held.


There are so many levels of awesome to this, I don't know where to begin so I don't think I will.
But summarised: geeks, people-watching, Rubik's cubes, albino child genius, blindfolds.

Not blindfolds in that way.


So I studied a bit, saw Calin (the French word, not the name) at the library and it was brief but excellent (all encounters with him are excellent).

After studying in the super quiet room at the state library which also happens to be very very beautiful, I went to Uke's house.
Studied some more physics while Uke and Bass jammed. It was awesome, just sitting and listening and laughing at all the stupid stuff we say, the boys' guitar faces and all the awesome effects we could find.
Could have spent hours just talking and listening to those two.

We acquired Uke's little sister and walked down to the Ivanhoe shops and ate really good chips and souvlaki. I picked out the onion and tomato and the boys ate it for me. 'Twas a beautiful transaction.

So we went back to the house, mucked around a little more, Uke's mum showed me all of his baby photos and was hilarious. She thinks I'm extremely studious and responsible. Heh. Also, his house has a mandolin, several flutes, guitars, ukeleles, amps, pedals ... just a lot of music stuff. It's great. It's been a long time since I've had friends who love music so much.

So yes. It sounds simple but I just had one of the best days I can remember.
There was no agenda. We just sat in a room.



I think I should just sit in a room more often. Maybe a room like that.


FINI.

Fwendz.

Christopher: 'Where have you been all my life?'

Kat: 'I don't know!'

Christopher:'Well I can tell you WHAT you've been. And that, my friend, is: MISSED!'

Kat: 'Ahhh! I miiiiiiiiiiiss yooooooooooooooou to an extent I cannot convey through added vowels!'

Christopher: 'The only vowels I care about are u and i.'

I am jealous of myself for having such an excellent friend.

I have many an excellent friend.

Dear Friends,

Thank you!

I've got a feeling,

That it's a demon!

Well no I don't, but if a sentence starts with 'I've got a feeling', it will end in Buffy.


I DO have a feeling that something bad will happen tomorrow.
I'm good at this. Just wait for it.

I hope I'm wrong.

WOOOOO-FOREBODING-OOOOOOO

Speaking of Buffy, I am a very big fan.

Buffy had it all.



Excellent make up and hilarious characters.

An awesome cast.

Very importantly ...
James Marsters.


Ehhhhhhh.

The list goes on an I'm too lazy

BUT most of all.

I wish I had a Giles.



FINI.

Oh look at that!

I gotst mah formspring back.
Now that THE PHANTOMMMM is gone I feel like it might be less exciting but oh wellz.

http://www.formspring.me/kattykatkatkat

And I haz no Facebook raight nao so formspring can be a way to contact me!

I ruv people.

I like people who can make my day without even doing anything.

Very much :) right now.

Coca cola and ice.

RAMBLE WARNING
RAMBLEY RAMBLE RAMRAM
I wish I liked Harry Potter and I wish I liked tea.
That sounded like the start of a poem.



Anyway out of myself and my six closest friends I am the only one not travelling and/or taking a gap year next year.
Am I terrified that I'll be left behind? Yes. Am I terrified that I'll miss out on some amazing life experience? Yes.
Eh, I'll make cool Melbourne friends. And be cool in Melbourne. (Humour me.)


House drama ended and it was beautiful and I got so much out of it.
It was so perfect.
In so may ways that I cannot begin to describe. Despite the award that I don't feel I should have won. I'm sorry to all the people who should have got it!!


I have so much to say.
Too much to put into words.
Sorry.

Dear world.

Love me.
The end.

In response to your question.

'How come you're so shy around me, but around them you're crazy and loud? I want you to be like that with me.'

You know how so many toddlers are really shy and won't talk when you first meet them?

How they won't talk or play but you know they want to.

Then all it takes is that one toy, that one game and they love you. All of a sudden they're the loud, obnoxious and energetic character you knew they were.

Well I never grew out of that faze. Sometimes I have to be coaxed out of my shell.

Sometimes it's instant, sometimes it's not.

I'm sorry for the shy thing and its inconsistency. I promise there is a predictability to my antics, it's just very difficult to figure out.

I do really think you're awesome.

I think the fact that you're awesome might be making me more shy. It matters more somehow so it's harder for me to break the barrier.

We'll get there!

Oh social life.

So it is often pointed out that I have groups of friends completely separate from one another.

It's true. I would hate it to be any other way.

I always admire those groups of friends who have been together forever and love eachother and know everything there is to know each person in the group but I don't think I could do that. At least not any time soon. And besides, there are almost always skeletons in the closet.
Maybe I'm really weird (well obviously I'm weird but roll with me) but I just can't hang out with the same people all the time. I need more stimulation.
I'd like to think it's everyone else who's strange and I'm the one who is thinking clearly.
I play trial and error with people. Yeah it can lead to sucky situations but I end up knowing what I want and how to get it. So try it.


AXOLOTL!

Also there's someone in my life who goes out of his way to make me very happy.
I don't know why he does it. But I hope it never ceases.

Last night.

They were awesome.
I had an excellent time.
Although my feet are probably worse off from the mosh. Price you pay!

Fave.

I love her a lot!
She has no bad side.




Also, I need to have a long ranty post.
Not sure if I will do it though.

Hmmm.

Orthodontics

The Giant gets braces today!

Welcome to my world, bro.


Also, Ukelele is officially a proper noun.

I won't, go on and on

A reason I love Tumblr:



The reason I just exploded:

They thought of me.

Oh hey there.


Also sometimes when I blur my eyes, Ross Noble looks like Spud.
But never the other way around.

Yay for procrastination.

WAYNE'S WORLD, WAYNE'S WORLD! PARTY TIME! EXCELLENT!



Eh heh.


On Friday night if we don't go to the beach I will be very disappointed in myself for not nagging hard enough.




Excellent facial expressions.


Last night I watched Zombieland. It makes me very happy that I own that movie.
Jesse Eisenberg is the new love of my life (sorry THE PHANTOMMMM).



How could he not be?
Just look!

Jamaican me crazy

Say 'shanty town' in a Jamaican accent.
So enjoyable.

THE PHANTOM HATH STRUCK AGAIN-ETH

So there's someone out there pretending to be a friend of mine and commenting on my blog.
Lolz time.

This is like that episode of Madeline when stuff like mittens and coats and stuff start disappearing and they blame it on Pepito (of course) but it turns out to be a bunch of magpies who are taking them and giving them to homeless people.

But I have a sneaking suspicion that THE PHANTOMMMM (actual name) is not a magpie or a homeless person or a magpie helping a homeless person.

I fucking miss Madeline. I grew up on her. I was so obsessed.
First video movie I ever owned.


Nostalgia.

Dear commenter.

Whoever you are, you bring the lolz.
Please stop pretending to be someone who you're not.

Love Cat Hair.
FINI.

My formal is next Friday.
I was really over it until we started planning today and I'm now quite excited!
Also, I'm going back to using code names for everyone because I like pretending to be a spy.


I really want to invite Uke to formal after party and such but I'm nervous to ask, as usual.
He gets to be called Uke for obvious reasons.
Stoopid.

I'm off to change every name mentioned to their codes while humming Mission Impossible music.


FINI.

Furthermore

UKELELES ARE FOLLOWING ME.

He'll yeah.

Well things have been a little strange but they seemed to work out so it's kind of OK.

Don't have a lot to say BUT I am happy and starting to find my motivation for year 12 again.
This is good.

Today I figured out that a good ENTER/ATAR score is actually quite achievable, realised I could live with being just friends with Uke if that's what it comes to and that I don't altogether hate school.


Yay timez!

Oh shit.

Aisling, Flick, Daisy, Nicole, Kevin, Michelle, anyone else who reads ....

I'm going to have a bit of a rant to you when I next see you.

Whoever comments can receive rant.

STOP BEING ANGSTY

Dear world.
Stop being constantly angsty.
The end.

So that person doesn't like you back.
So you think you're ugly.
So you care too much what people think.
Just go out and do something that makes you happy or makes you feel a bit freer.
It's not that difficult. I know it is, but it really isn't.

This may help:



JESUS JUST MAKE FACES OR SOMETHING, LIFE IS FUN.

OK

I don't hate boys quite as much as I thought I did.
But I definitely don't like not seeing my friends.

Sighighigh.

This has not been a good day! Ah well.
I still have stockings to look forward to and to love me.